It feels like ages since my last post. I should start considering that a warning sign to take a day off life.

I feel like the older I get, the more compelled I am to be in a relationship, and the less I feel like it is a good idea. Perhaps the drama has been too high.. lately? Or has it always been? My cynicism still lends to the statistic reality of most relationships failing. I’m a little unhappy with admitting internal pressures are such a significant force. I think we all like to believe they aren’t, even if they always are. Like if you drill down to happiness, or feeling good about yourself, egoboo, always being at the core of every one of our actions.

I think I just need to be more honest with people about all of this, and not worry so much about the fear of disappointing others.