Ry saw my last post and came by to help me work out the suburban’s latest electrical problem. Turned out to have a bad splice in addition to the grounding problem. Charging up the batteries and we should be in pretty good shape now.
The day was filled with anger and frustration. These aren’t familiar feelings to me. It’s pretty annoying that my depression keeps me from being ultimately happy, but is totally cool with letting me be angry. If it’s going to strip me of positive emotions, you’d think it could take a few of the bad ones with it.
After a lot of stammering, wrenching, pacing, and biking, all in spurts based on what seemed best at the moment to let out some energy, the day started to conclude, I calmed down, and got some untainted thought in. Some chatter with mother brought us to agreement that I’m being dealt a rigged hand. There’s nobody at this table that is interested in talking about it so I can play along or get up and leave. Insofar as the analogy applies, I’m choosing the latter, which basically amounts to letting it go and not trying any longer to get anything worthwhile out of the situation.
I got the 3-speed back together, although I couldn’t find the official diagram for mounting a Sturmey-Archer hub. She rolls again. Mom bought an Electra Townie at the LBS in Eatonville, so she has a bike down there now and the pressure to get this one 100% perfect was relaxed a bit. I got the blue Schwinn back together as well, whose rear wheel was being used as a crutch on the 3-speed until I got the very specific rare parts in and the time to fix it. It’s all tuned, although it’s still on rear wheels and the freewheel sticks a little causing a bit of chainslap. Mostly the steel wheels are crap and should go, but this bike is rarely ridding since nobody in my house needs such a small bike, so it sits. I got this silly little Honda Prodigy fixed. Who knows what to do with it. It’ll probably be a silly bike for riding around the neighborhood like the Dahon.
What else. I don’t know. Depression sucks. People making it harder suck too.