I wanted to restore the old loft post somewhere, but it’s late and I’m tired. I got the old database imported from mysql, but I’ll have to convert it to another format before importing it. I need to figure out what the simplest format that supports comments wordpress supports I think. I want the nostalgia.

What an incredibly long and heart wrenching day. I know time will pass and I’ll feel better. It’s frustrating that sometimes when you’re the loneliest is when you need to be. I wonder how many people out there really have not being able to feel being their biggest problem. I’ve never had a problem with lacking emotion. Of course sometimes it is easier to appreciate how someone feels than others. I try to convince myself that my thoughts and feelings are not mutually exclusive. They can find compromise. It’s hard to do and I worry more and more that the missing link in relationships is going to be something much shallower than I was hoping for.

A long weekend is pretty well needed. I may sleep, or go for some lone bike rides. Maybe take mom snowshoeing or something. I need some distractions and rest to let my heart find it’s rhythm..