Lots of recent topics to remember.

People often say that actions speak louder than words. Whilst growing up, I was told lots of lessons that didn’t make sense until I actually learned them. One of them amounts to this. I’m much less interested in what people believe than that they’ve thought about what they believe, and consequently what legs those beliefs stand on.

I regularly worry about, well, fitting in. Insomuch as that I worry that I’m not as smart, or as capable, or whatnot as others. What’s of particular interest is that I used to more, and that as time’s gone on, I’ve realize that the level of comprehension that I believed others to be at was always actually quite higher than reality, and where they really were I easily achieved some time ago without realizing it.

I was thinking tonight about the consequences of believing you are awesome. Do you continue to grow or challenge yourself if you somehow believe you are some sort of pinnacle of humanity? Doubtful. So I would figure that the people that question themselves are actually more likely to be the ones achieving much of interest at all. The other’s are probably busy filing software patents (ha!).

Then, I wonder about the difference between people who worry about how awesome they are and those that don’t care. At first glimpse it seems that many that don’t care do so because they do in fact think highly of themselves. But you have to assume that there is a level of [achievable] complacency where one is totally indifferent to their awesomeness.

There’s something to be said about believing you are fallible and maintaining a bar, or goal, higher than your present self evaluation. The trouble is in thinking far too low of yourself, or too high. Once again, like most everything, it’s a question of balance.