A day at home, mucking about with VPN issues for work waiting for UPS to deliver mom’s packages. She’s moving to Seattle at the end of the month. I can appreciate needing the time off.

hey Bryan, i’m sort of seeing someone, and sort of just feeling out of the game right now. i also sort of always date older guys. but thanks for the note. i really do appreciate it.

I nervously scanned my sent-email for the part where I had said, “hey babe, you’re hot. let’s do it”. Or not. But I was a little surprised. I had emailed this girl with my standard banter, somethings in her profile got me thinking and I started a conversation. There was a question in there that went unanswered. You can’t judge strangers though. You know nothing about them, or their circumstances.

The ‘older guys’ comment was interesting too; three years difference. Of course, she’s certainly entitled to want whatever she does. But a poll or chart of some kind would be interesting. I’ve been chatting a bit with another girl, five years older, who based on a journal entry does maintain some kind of statistics:

Since 8/24/08, the following people have initiated contact with me:
M <<btmspox>> – very cool guy so far
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People are so unique and different. Today was uneventful, and I spent a lot of time hitting my head against a wall, to no avail, but somehow I feel good about it. And perhaps thus, I’m glad people are different. Fears of ageism are long since gone from my soul. These days people tend to assume I’m older rather than younger. I prefer that, probably from the ordeals I went through dealing with age when I was younger. These days I’m much more interested in experiences and maturity than age. Wait, wasn’t I always? Perhaps. Although, perhaps I’m slightly succumbing finally to feeling that people my age or younger haven’t put themselves through enough yet to have much wisdom to work with. Yup, I’m a bastard.

If people are really complex systems, why I do enjoy solving problems with other types of systems, yet am only curious when it comes to people? I’m a believer in the “you can’t fix people” mentality, while you can fix other systems. Is that it? I don’t recall working through that logic, although I’m the last to not have faith in the subconscious.

I had a chat with Denny today about Maria and Maine and the lot. That was good. I feel it’s tough to find anyone who knows about the past there, or at least enough that I’m not constantly filling in back stories, and isn’t super judgmental.

I did get to use a comment that I’ve been laughing with myself about for a while now though:

My mom is actually moving from Maine this month to move in with me. I feel like I should be able to produce more funny jokes from that than I have thus far. I’m waiting for her to get here to add, “My mom still lives with me. She’s a good kid though” to my profile. She is a good kid though, she just needs a break.

I need to read a bit before going to sleep. Bicycle camping this weekend.