I really need it. I missed an advocacy meeting today because I crashed on a futon at work at 5pm.

I had dinner tonight with a friend and a long discussion about J calling me out on M, and wondering if I’m only wanting what I can’t have. In the past we’ve talked about why I wasn’t happy with the relationships I had, and I can’t complain so much anymore. There are plenty of great women in my life these days.

This friend wondered if I should just cut off M altogether. Maybe. There really isn’t much to cut off, which is kind of the point.

Well, no, the point is wondering why I care so much about something that isn’t there. Meh.