Or not.

Hooooly crap today sucks. M recommended “maybe you should let yourself be sad,” to which I responded “I don’t feel like I’m keeping myself from feeling sad though. I can’t remember feeling sad and thinking I shouldn’t.” I think my head hurts too much to cry right now. I should have slept when I had the chance. I can’t decide over going to the bar for an hour, or going for a motorcycle ride now.

Everyone I’d like to talk to right now, I can’t. Still, I don’t regret my choices, it just makes me feel alone.