Spring cleaning today, getting rid of cruft, sorting paperwork, a lot of it from five years ago. The domestic partnership agreement with M for health insurance…

I talked with C a lot last night about relationships. My first two relationships, with H + M, were my only long-term ones. In the five years hence I’ve dated quite a bit. While refining what I’m looking for seems like a great idea, it also makes all of this seem, harder. My expectations and standards have changed, raised?, so significantly and feel like I’ve only come close one or twice to starting another long-term relationship.

I feel helpless to make sense of it. There was a couple times last night when I sort of exclaimed to C, “but that’s what I mean! I have all these data points but they isn’t anything solid coming out of them.”