It’s funny hearing cheers to “17 year olds and 7 speeds” and “I like your gray hair, it means something is important enough for you to stress about” in the same evening.

The last couple days I’ve felt some uncomfortable parallels between M and J. Some are silly, like my nose going into pure useless water drip mode recently, and when it did about a year ago. Others are more disconcerting, like body language.

I went to make a comment tonight about how my last two relationships felt emotionally curtailed, then I thought about it and upgraded it. To the last three. Then again, to the last four. What a year. Then that bothered me, the past year. A year ago was the peak, a relationship that started out feeling very emotionally intense, but which backfired and burned itself out from the inside. Since that turned downhill, it’s mostly been an emotionally unavailable world and I haven’t known quite where to put myself.

We’ll see where that goes. For the time being, I’m excited about that coming to an end.