Waiting for development to send me some sql statements to tune up the demo environment for engage this week. I chuckled remembering M’s complaint about how I thought about truck axles when  I should have, presumbly, been thinking about more meaningful bits. I’m pretty sure I’ve always had the thinking too much covered, actually.

I’ve been thinking about M rarely talking about his first wife, about having strong feelings for someone not being enough to make it work, about finding a relationship that you can make work. Someone (J?) was talking with me a while back about often falling for people who were not emotionally available. I’ve had enough strife due to the emotionally unavailable that I’m much better at accepting my losses.

Maybe it’s time to count more of my blessings. Maybe that’s what I’m doing right now.

Carefully.