I saw an article recently about the relationship of intelligence to search queries. My memory recalls it connect what people were searching for with how adept their use of language was. Sometimes I wonder if I ever got into “lol”. I must have, although more likely edgy alternatives like “rofl”. All the same, when I see people use “lol” heavily, especially when writing profiles about themselves, it is a red flag. Interesting though, a good friend says lol a lot in chat, but she’s also incredibly smart, so it’s obviously more complicated than that. Mostly a nerve has been hit and I’m ranting.

I’ve been drawing a big circle in my mind in pencil thinking about how “we had a fling” and “I didn’t want to date him, date him” align with me and my self-image. Emotionally, not all that great, but as always, stable enough. I’m still pretty withdrawn and cautious in my interactions lately.

The long days at work lately don’t hurt either.