Conversation this morning glanced my niceness. Am I nice because I’m just nice, or am I nice because I like (like like (like more than friends (crush (limerance (love))))) you? (semantics win!) Going out of my way for others is my natural state of being, because I believe it is important and has meaning. Sometimes I point out that this isn’t a grand ego-free decision I’ve made and deserve a pat on the back for. The same is true here, this is just the way I am. However, if I blush and squirm when you thank me, well maybe I like you too.

why do i always ignore your alcohol asides when i otherwise jump in and start a sidebar on the tiniest thing? because i didn’t wanna risk losing being approachable.

I can’t think of ever being in a place where I stopped approaching someone because they had honest ideas and feelings to express. I’ve definitely stopped approaching people who can’t respond with maturity or can’t be bothered with the burden of my having feelings that affect them.