I’d like to think that I’ve gotten better at keeping my mouth shut and not spewing emotion out it when I automatically feel the desire, well maybe except at 1am from a bar (1, 2, 3).  The Draft entries in my gmail stare back at me though. It’s still okay to write them if you never send them right? It really isn’t so much that I think I should learn to bottle it up, that is for the best, it is that no one wants to hear it without reluctance in the way that I want to reciprocate. Under those circumstances, it does feel for the best to write to myself, go for a ride, or meet someone for a drink. Distractions until I pass the apex of the emotion.