Sometimes I have to roll the dice and decide if the number of projects I’m currently working on, but waiting on something, is too high to start another one rather than just wait.

A friend wrote me an awesome little thought,

A new lover asked me a few weeks or months ago, whether I’d ever been in love. I’m not sure. I guess I don’t really know which feelings being “in love” is meant to encompass. And do the feelings have to be mutual to be “in love with” ? Well I still don’t know, but I consulted wikipedia and came across “Limerence” which is kind of an interesting concept: “an involuntary cognitive and emotional state of intense romantic desire for another person,” involving, among other things, “acute longing for reciprocation, fear of rejection, and unsettling shyness in the limerent object’s presence.” It kinda sums up all sorts of emotions that probably everyone experiences but no one really acknowledges in such a straightforward way.

I’ve been thinking about all of this a bunch lately. Still struggling with the right ways to act, how to express myself, and what it all means to how I feel at the end of the day.

Thinking about my regular disclaimer about context on the ride into day and I got to thinking that I write a number of very black and white statements, but that I don’t necessarily think in that way. Further, it’s like these thoughts are a splotch of black added to my conscious thoughts than then gets averaged into what already exists forming a tide of gray opinion.