Burned out from two packed days, but still got a lot in. We went to the Lewis and Clark caves in the morning. Of the caves I’ve been to, this was the most fun. Then north to the “ghost town” of Elkhorn, now wandering the streets of Helena, having a hard time finding much open tonight.

Camped in the back of a dump truck along the tracks last night. We’ll see how tonight goes.

The sleep deprivation made it hard to not think about L when driving. I took notes from my thoughts, but I don’t have the time for that now. Feeling hurt sucks. Thinking about breaking up with M and finally being willing to hold the things that she did that hurt me against her, I wonder if that will help with L. Her guilt about my feelings and the equality of our relationship isn’t anything she had the time to be distracted by, with a relationship and me being low on her list of priorities. That’s all very lame, and holding it against her may help me feel better. All the same, my brain and heart are at odds usualy.

Heart: I miss L
Brain: Yeah, she is an incredible person.
H: *cry*
B: Grow up wuss, go meet a new girl.
H: You’re not that tough yourself.
B: Shuttup.

On that note, I’m going to start dating again. It’s probably too early, but whatever.