Ginger sent me this article this morning about how wanting to quit an addiction is usually more successful than treatment alone. Coming from a long line of [mostly] functional alcoholics, I’ve seen how many things don’t change if you don’t really want them too. There’s an interesting correlation with relationships there too. In the past I’ve always wanted to do whats right, but the trouble is in figuring out what that is. Because someone else thinks something is right, and you value their opinion and care about them, isn’t really enough. Maybe that’s just me, but because I feel so much, I need to believe in something before it’s going to fight it’s way close enough to my core to make a significant difference in my actions.

I had to laugh, I’m getting promoted to “Senior Systems Administrator” because we’re hiring my friend Eric and we want to give him a title of “Systems Administrator”, which is my title now. I realize it’s also because of my competance and hard work, but having been a Systems Adminstrator for so long, in so many places, doing so many different things, I’ve come to feel like the title really means “Person who gets shit done”. At one point I started using “Systems and Network Engineer” on resumes to denote that I do much more than maintain systems, but I don’t really fight about titles because I could care less. I probably should care more, for my careers sake, but I argue that I wouldn’t want to work some place where I was judged on my past titles and not my competence. So it’s funnier to think of it this way.

I’ve been hanging out with Ginger all week after work, which has been awesome, because she’s awesome. We’re going to Burning Man at the end of the month, which should prove to be an adventure.