I’m convinced that writing an okc profile is one of the best exercises in self-evaluation I’ve done, or that one could do. I think about it a lot, and more than once have sat down wanting to re-write it elsewhere, solely for the such purposes.

Another night on the hill leaves me thinking about the past, ex-girlfriends, and mostly overshadowed by perception. God damn that perception seems to have a rigid hold on so many things, but I give it a lot of credit because I get a lot of credit where I don’t put effort because I’m so … disconnected.. that I come off as cool and relaxed I suppose? I don’t know how to interpret the subtle actions of others that don’t communicate verbally, and combined with recent reminiscing about recent and past arguments that seem outright foolish, I’m leaning more and more on side that it doesn’t really matter. People need to chill out.

I need to evaluate hobbies a little bit, and how people get tied up in scenes. We do, and normally I dislike scenesters, but I have to consider how much of one I probably am.