I actually created a task called “Write about worry, obliviousness and being a jerk, distraction” to remind myself to write something this morning so I wouldn’t forget my ponderings. I did this from my phone, where typing, especially with a large drip in one hand is, lets  just say, inconvenient.

I’ve had a number of things worrying me for a while, or perhaps, stressing me out. Some of you may be aware of some, such as the reenacted ‘reckless driving’ foolishness, taxes, injury lawsuits, etc.

My counselor as been unavailable for a bit due to an illness and I’ve being going it alone, feeling that since I bailed from Strategy, life has been returning to ‘normal’ and I’ve got an okay grip on what’s reasonable and what isn’t, which is a topic of great debate between me, and well, myself. The last 18 months have been on my mind due to all of this, and since I’ve been working at Widemile things have certainly been better, so I’ve been wondering how much of that is accountable to being distracted and busy.

I was thinking this morning about a friend from Maine, Steve, who used to work in NYC decades ago and moved to Maine to  take it slow and easy. I wonder what it would be like to take things slow and easy. Would I be stressed out? Is my most capable way of dealing with stress by being distracted, be it working, drinking (hah), movies, video games, trips or whatever? How much is being distracted or disconnected a coping mechanism? I’ve taken care of a few things the last couple of days, and I’m starting to take care of a couple bits that have stressed me for a while but I’ve ignored, recently throwing in the towel.

I wish I could remember the quote, but a friend once joked about me saying “Is she crazy, or am I a jerk?”. I was stuck thinking about that this morning, as I come to grips with having opinions. Which is a huge deal for me, if you didn’t notice you may not be able to appreciate how life changing it really is.